I'm going to college and leaving him behind. I know it's not a mistake, but why does my heart feel like it's being ripped out and staying here with him instead?

*hugs* Loves a bitch like that.

One time, at the bar, I drank half a pitcher of beer with cigarette ash in it because I wasn't drunk enough.

When questioned, I denied the whole thing.

Ooof. *shudder* Was it as nasty as it sounds?

I am constantly worrying that my long distance boyfriend doesn't miss me nearly as much as I miss him.

*hugs*

i'm beginning to wonder if it really is cancer, or something else equally as bad. i'm scared to get tested.

Please please please get tested.

I'm still in love with my ex even though he broke up with me six months ago and it makes me wonder what's wrong with me that for the six months we dated he treated me like crap but now treats his two other girlfriends (makeout buddies, really) like princesses. Also I'm always hoping/wishing/praying he'll grow up and realize he loves me and we'd be perfect for each other. It's very...debilitating in my dating life.

Aw. Some say it takes half the length of your relationship. No matter how he treated you.

Some say it takes a year.

Took me 2.

And break ups are not unlike death. You go through all the same stages. (denial etc..)

I've cheated on my boyfriend several times and I don't know if I will still continue to cheat on him. I love him so much, but sometimes I just can't stop.

*hugs * I've never been in that position, I can't imagine what it must be like in your shoes.

I love her so much.
But I want to go.
I think it's time to go.

But how the hell do you do it?

*hugs* Be straightforward, honest, kind. I don't know your situation, but I think that's how you go about doing anything that might be difficult for someone else.

LOVE doesn't mean ANYTHING to me anymore!

*hugs*

You've seen this one: I'm only 'good enough' to fuck, but not to love. (Or, so it seems.)

And, I don't know if I'll ever know what I want to do for a career. I have the drive, just no direction. This indecision makes me feel like my dad is disappointed in me, which creates more stress and indecision.

It's interesting how so many of these boil down to people wanting love and/or attention. Yet, we sit behind these screens each day and night, hiding from what may be there.

The irony is, that after pointing that out, I'll continue to sit behind my screen for fear of putting my heart out there again. Viva la cowardice!

More than anything, for years, through all the 4 year relationships, break ups, 2 year relationships,wonderful men - who can't commit, who don't have the same picket fence dreams...

I rub my left hand ring finger, unclaimed.

All I have wanted is to BE MARRIED!

I'm not sure that's what you really want. Committment is different than marriage. For those who believe marriage won't change a relationship, you are wrong. Unless you can keep it the same, but it's damn near impossible. Good luck. I wish you the best. :o)

Someone had left cherry tomatoes on the kitchen counter.

I don't particularly like cherry tomatoes, but that was irrelevant to the choice I made following finding them, and realizing I was home alone.

For no reason at all, I hurled the tomatoes at the living room wall! I wasnt angry! I wasnt sad! It was just something silly to do! I wanted to see them go splat!

I cleaned it all up, but not well enough.

Dad wanted to know why there were seeds all over the painting. He knew they were tomatoe seeds.

He wanted to know when my brother and I had a tomato fight.

I lied, and said I didn't know anything about it. My little brother shrugged, and figured my father was being anal retentive. They pressed us every day for weeks, but I denied all knowlege of a tomato fight.

No one guessed I threw the tomatoes at the wall by myself, because that makes no fucking sense! That's something he might do because he is ADHD, but not me!

I was 16.

I am now 27. They still don't know. They sold that house last month. I still maintain the lie, and every once in a while, it does come up.

That is such an interesting story!

Do you think you'll take it to your grave?

All i want out of life is to be married and have children and be happy... I can't imagine a "real job" in anyway. I've had two, i quit one after three weeks and got fired from the other after a month. and as much as my parents push... i don't think i can get another, let alone hold it.


or want to. *siiiiigh*


Greatest fears include; never finding someone dumb enough to love me, and finding out i'm sterile.

Wow.. if I could be happy in my relationship, kids and no job would be great. I can't stand my 'real job'. But anyone that loves you is everything except dumb. Don't believe that.

I was molested by my two male cousins. It's a huge family secret and one that no one ever talks about.

Now my child has to play with their children, and I'm grateful I have a son, so that their sons won't hurt him like their Fathers hurt me.

*hugs*

i am hoping to god that this isn't fake.

because i don't rule out lasting possibilities.

I don't know what "this" you're referring too, but I hope the same for you.

i'm just really...happy.

Good. :)